Looking Forward....

It's running late in the evenning I haven't yet had a "ME" time to myself and when I try,..... I find myself enjoying the company of my children next to me as I type this.



April is almost over we are now getting close to the summer with more daylight on our way. I am anxious which drives me more each day over the exhaustion I have and the laughter yet used to surpress the weakness I have inside. I love my job.. I really do yet i crave for more responsibility .. I crave for more knowledge that i feel the need to go back to school to earn my master's while working at the same time. What's stopping me, money and a husband that can't seem to find a job. It's depressing but I can't let that stop me. I need to work hard and show that I can do the work and that I am capable of handling a large task.. I know I am capable I know I have the talent and I know I have the smarts.. I may not speak the way they want me to but in my work alot is and can be done.



Well, enough said,..... it's time to move forward and do the best I can without sounding like an idiot to anyone. I think it's time to get the kids to sleep. We are close to finishing the 2nd part of Nephi.. we've come along way, every night before they are suppose to sleep I read to them a scripture each night.



As a testimony I believe in the Gospel I truly believe in Families are Forever, I truly believe Heavenly Father did not send us on this earth to relax, drink and be merry... I believe our task here is far more than just thinking for yourself and your own family but to do what's right in his eyes.. to keep the commandments, to serve others the best way you can without hurting your own family, to choose the right and not feel it's okay to sin because this sunday I'm going to repent... I dont understand that concept .. it just makes our Savior sacrifice more meaningless... "Wickedness Never was Happiness" ....... ...I truly believe in the Higher standards .... and I truly believe in the Book of Mormon it is a true testament of Jesus Christ .. it doesn't matter to me what others think .. I know it's true and I know he lives.. I know without a doubt that he will come again and when he does with or without me here on earth I know I will be there to witness and see the glory of him and his angels..

A little Sign of Spring

It's been a windy April so far and I'm just in and out with my coat. The kids are hopefully asleep now and I'm just enjoying whatever little time I have for myself "My Me Time". =) We just got thru reading another chapter with the kids. We are now on 2nd Nephi Chapter 3, I actually went thru this chapter without much of a pause (It was long......... ) I promise I'll go over it again sunday .. This week is showing some good signs for the kids at school.. mostly Freddy. From what his teacher said.. Thirty something years of experience she's never come across a boy like Freddy.. very hard for her to handle.. last week me and the kids father tried to figure out ways in which we can change this disobedient attitude of freddy. We tried taking away his toys, that didn't work, Freddy said he can always use his brothers toys.., we took away his favorite sweater, he said he was growing out of it, we took away his favorite underwear and switched it off with his sisters' . he said he didn't care no one going to know, we thought about making him skip a meal.. ( I just couldn't do it ) ... it was not until this one tuesday we took all the kids with us to the gym to play some basketball and volleyball ,,... we noticed how Freddy quickly ran straight to the bleechers after spending less than five minutes on the court. I looked at veve and said I think we found his weakness.. we called over Freddy to play more.. he said no he's tired.. we called him again, he cried and said no he's tired... later that night... we talked about this just me and veve... Freddy got into an argument with Aano and yelled at him for something.. we called Freddy and Aano downstairs and made both of them do pushups.. Aano didnt complaint.. but boy did Freddy cry not even completing the first push up his face was wet from all the tears rushing down his face.. Sooooo since then instead of exhausting all the options that no long work we found something that triggers that bad attitude, macho boy to a hopefully obedient child with a halo on his head LOL.. results.. for two weeks now he's been getting good remarks from his teacher.. as for the rest of the kids.. everyday a learning experience.. I hope they grow up to become strong Leaders ...