Looking Forward....

It's running late in the evenning I haven't yet had a "ME" time to myself and when I try,..... I find myself enjoying the company of my children next to me as I type this.



April is almost over we are now getting close to the summer with more daylight on our way. I am anxious which drives me more each day over the exhaustion I have and the laughter yet used to surpress the weakness I have inside. I love my job.. I really do yet i crave for more responsibility .. I crave for more knowledge that i feel the need to go back to school to earn my master's while working at the same time. What's stopping me, money and a husband that can't seem to find a job. It's depressing but I can't let that stop me. I need to work hard and show that I can do the work and that I am capable of handling a large task.. I know I am capable I know I have the talent and I know I have the smarts.. I may not speak the way they want me to but in my work alot is and can be done.



Well, enough said,..... it's time to move forward and do the best I can without sounding like an idiot to anyone. I think it's time to get the kids to sleep. We are close to finishing the 2nd part of Nephi.. we've come along way, every night before they are suppose to sleep I read to them a scripture each night.



As a testimony I believe in the Gospel I truly believe in Families are Forever, I truly believe Heavenly Father did not send us on this earth to relax, drink and be merry... I believe our task here is far more than just thinking for yourself and your own family but to do what's right in his eyes.. to keep the commandments, to serve others the best way you can without hurting your own family, to choose the right and not feel it's okay to sin because this sunday I'm going to repent... I dont understand that concept .. it just makes our Savior sacrifice more meaningless... "Wickedness Never was Happiness" ....... ...I truly believe in the Higher standards .... and I truly believe in the Book of Mormon it is a true testament of Jesus Christ .. it doesn't matter to me what others think .. I know it's true and I know he lives.. I know without a doubt that he will come again and when he does with or without me here on earth I know I will be there to witness and see the glory of him and his angels..